I have been given multiple promises that the site manager would install the hookup for our new washer. For the last two months. What's worse is that I have been promised since before I got the washer.
I have been asking at least once a day as to when we will get the hook up and always get the same answer "I'll talk to the owner today."
I have already invested the money to purchase the washer because he said it should be easy to do. If this keeps up I'm going to save up the money and pay a plumber myself and deduct the cost from the rent. I will see if that will get his butt in gear and make him follow thru with his promise.
Last week I had a meeting with my kids' teachers (by their request) and one of them was my daughter's reading teacher. She freaked out a bit when she conveyed the message that her teacher wanted to talk to me. She's a bit of a nervous kid, bites her fingernails, and she has practically no nails to speak of. Anyway I went and met up with this collage looking guy with a book bag (should have been my first clue that he was the reading teacher) and we talked at length about her and how her reading and comprehension level were the highest in the grade level. He handed me a thick stack of papers and said that it was a book list (to my surprise I actually read some of the books on the list) that most Advanced Placement classes used. I mentioned trying to get her to read Animal Farm, I think he was talking to himself when he said 'Oh, that's a great idea!' I think I may have made his class harder for his students. He also stated that he was jealous over the fact that she brought (my) Jim Butcher books for free reading time, he confessed to me to looking all over for his books. I told him that I had one of this book autographed the last time he came to the Phoenix Comicon. So we parted ways and I was pretty relieved that she wasn't in trouble, since she's a sass master at home.
Sometime I feel so selfish for the things I want. My therapist says that it's ok to want things for myself, that I shouldn't feel guilty and that I need to treat myself every now and again. The things I want seem so outlandish for our family at the moment. I want a car younger than 20 years, in fact I want a brand new car because I know the air conditioning in a new car should work. I want to own an actual house with some land, I want to grow things that my family will love to eat. I want fruit trees and a vegetable garden. I want to bake my own bread, grind my own wheat. I want chickens for fresh eggs, I want a goat for some fresh milk, I want some dogs and not be restricted by a landlord as to what breed or size the dogs are. I want to be able to fix up the house and not require some strangers approval. I want to make my own workshop where I can make my own furniture, the way I want to. I want to put in solar panels, and not depend so much on a power company.
I get frustrated because all this requires something I don't have. Money. That's why we started budgeting, we don't make a lot, but there's a lot of things we don't need to spend money on. It's going to be difficult, but eventually we'll get there. I just want my kids to grow up in a place that they can call home.
I don't feel like an adult. Not one bit. I'm 32 and I still feel like I'm 17. I have no idea what to do with my life, even now with 3 kids, 2 of which are entering into thier teens. I have a decent job that I can do vertually anywhere in the world, but I stay at home. Speaking of which, is a rental. I think I need to change up what I am doing. I need to focus more on what I want out of life, and why I am so afraid of doing what I want to do.