I don't feel like an adult. Not one bit. I'm 32 and I still feel like I'm 17. I have no idea what to do with my life, even now with 3 kids, 2 of which are entering into thier teens. I have a decent job that I can do vertually anywhere in the world, but I stay at home. Speaking of which, is a rental. I think I need to change up what I am doing. I need to focus more on what I want out of life, and why I am so afraid of doing what I want to do.
Insomnia can be a bitch. I’ve got a pill to help me sleep but it makes it extremely hard to wake up in the morning. That’s rather difficult for me since I starting working some shifts in early morning. It’s pretty lose/lose for me. My usual relaxation techniques keep getting interrupted, so it’s not that relaxing.
Add to the fact that I may need to find another part time job, the stress levels I’m facing is higher than I normally am used to. Sometime faking happy is easier than actually being happy.
Lately I’ve been on a craft kick. Quilting, sewing, knitting, crocheting. Now, Soap making. I’ve been hitting Hobby Lobby to get some things, but I’ve also been hitting thrift stores as well, getting crock pots, spoons, and other things because I want to start making soap using KOH and NaOH (Lye). I want to make my own liquid castile soap, instead of buying Dr Bronner’s (not that I don’t like it. I just want to make a lot and not worry about how much I am using for the purposes I use it for. In the next couple of months I will start with basic soap and work my way to liquid castile soap. I don’t plan on selling any of the soap, I just want it for home use, and I want to know the stuff in the soap my family uses. For example, my son gets a severe reaction to aloe, I want to make sure that there is no aloe in the soaps we have, both liquid and solid.
Since I have more time because work is cutting my hours, I will have more time on my hands to work on all my craft things.