It has been several months since I last blogged and for that I apologize.
It has been several months since I last blogged and for that I apologize.
I wanted to do so much yesterday! But instead I drank. The thing is I don't usually drink as much as I did yesterday. If I do drink its extremely diluted but not yesterday. I had 3 mixed drinks that equated to 8 large shots. I was drunk, wasted, etc. I wanted to reorganize my kitchen, didn't happen, wanted to redo my closet, nope. I suppose I'd have to wait to do it another day when I am not so hung over….
Last week I had a meeting with my kids' teachers (by their request) and one of them was my daughter's reading teacher. She freaked out a bit when she conveyed the message that her teacher wanted to talk to me. She's a bit of a nervous kid, bites her fingernails, and she has practically no nails to speak of. Anyway I went and met up with this collage looking guy with a book bag (should have been my first clue that he was the reading teacher) and we talked at length about her and how her reading and comprehension level were the highest in the grade level. He handed me a thick stack of papers and said that it was a book list (to my surprise I actually read some of the books on the list) that most Advanced Placement classes used. I mentioned trying to get her to read Animal Farm, I think he was talking to himself when he said 'Oh, that's a great idea!' I think I may have made his class harder for his students. He also stated that he was jealous over the fact that she brought (my) Jim Butcher books for free reading time, he confessed to me to looking all over for his books. I told him that I had one of this book autographed the last time he came to the Phoenix Comicon. So we parted ways and I was pretty relieved that she wasn't in trouble, since she's a sass master at home.
After putting in some extra hours in work this morning and a quick stop to Dollar Tree for a few cleaning supplies (and some flash cards for my son). I roped in my husband and my oldest daughter into helping me catalog our Movies and Video Games. Wow, we have a lot! Some duplicates, so those most likely will be traded in for store credit at our usual haunt of Bookman's. Not only did I make a list, we also dusted them off and reorganized them into some semblance of order. I think this is a step in the right direction. Now I need to get the kids to help me spring clean while they're off of school. Wish me luck!
My cat has not been fixed yet and I know she was in heat a few weeks ago and now she's looking a bit tubby. I'm worried that she got pregnant and will soon have kittens. Don't get me wrong I love kittens, just not when MY cat has kittens. I think that I need to save up some money so I can get her spayed when I can.
Since It's been MONTHS since I last posted I have decided to change that. I will try to post daily and get in the habit of sharing. Since I have been on a savings kick, we are trying the David Ramsey Baby Steps thing. We already completed Baby Step 1, and are in the process of Baby Step 2. I know it's usually the longest one to do because it involves paying down all debts, and boy do we have some!
I think that the hardest part of this whole thing is making a budget and sticking to it. I think a discussion is in order and maybe we can get this done, It would be nice to put the money up for a down payment on a house instead of paying some store for stuff we bought on payments.
Wish us luck!
Sometime I feel so selfish for the things I want. My therapist says that it's ok to want things for myself, that I shouldn't feel guilty and that I need to treat myself every now and again. The things I want seem so outlandish for our family at the moment. I want a car younger than 20 years, in fact I want a brand new car because I know the air conditioning in a new car should work. I want to own an actual house with some land, I want to grow things that my family will love to eat. I want fruit trees and a vegetable garden. I want to bake my own bread, grind my own wheat. I want chickens for fresh eggs, I want a goat for some fresh milk, I want some dogs and not be restricted by a landlord as to what breed or size the dogs are. I want to be able to fix up the house and not require some strangers approval. I want to make my own workshop where I can make my own furniture, the way I want to. I want to put in solar panels, and not depend so much on a power company.
I get frustrated because all this requires something I don't have. Money. That's why we started budgeting, we don't make a lot, but there's a lot of things we don't need to spend money on. It's going to be difficult, but eventually we'll get there. I just want my kids to grow up in a place that they can call home.
I have this bad habit of getting into hobbies and never doing anything with them. This new hobby I've already invested hundreds of dollars in, well…not really it was gift cards, but you get the idea. My newest acquisition is an impact driver from Harbor Freight, I went into the store not planning on buying anything but when I saw the price of it I couldn't not get it. I've been wanting to get an impact driver for a while and the one I liked the best was $99, but I wasn't really prepared to spend that much on just one tool. So this one caught my eye it was only $20 and since I just started into woodworking and home-improvement DIY I figured that this would be a great starter tool and that I would not be using it all that often to justify a $99 purchase.
I've only used it a few times but already I am happy with it since it fits my needs perfectly and it matches the rest of my toolset. The first thing I plan on making is a shoe rack for my kids closets since they have their shoes all over the place. I have to do is plan it out since I have everything I need to make it. With all the negative stuff that's been happening the last few months I want to focus on this positive aspect of my life, I love working with my hands and I always have the ability to make something that I can't afford to buy. I can't wait to get started!
I was given some medication to take daily that I never thought I would ever take but now that I've been diagnosed with Clinical Depression and Social Anxiety I'm happy that the medication seems to be working. I'm not as sad as I have been, other than the high stress of the time I went to court (I still need to turn in the paperwork to the court house) I seem to be doing well. I've been given Prozac, I'm starting the second month of the pills and I was told the it would reach full potency after 8 weeks so I'm looking forward to that, I was also given Xanax but I haven't taken any yet. I am hoping that I'm on the right track about feeling better, I'm going to give it a few months and hopefully it's all I need. I guess it's one of those 'wait and see' moments.
Many things happened in the last few days. Monday I was scheduled to have my second therapy session, but it was changed to Wednesday Morning after a brief phone call with my assigned therapist. Which was alright because we received a visa gift card in the mail and one of the the things we got (was really for me, actually) was a circular saw, one blade to go with it, an orbital sander and the sandpaper that goes with it. I was so excited and also feeling guilty because I felt like we were spending too much on what I wanted. My husband was trying to talk me into a sliding miter saw as well as everything else. I said no because at this point in time I doubted that it would get much use. Although I would love to get it eventually, I think the next set of tools I would want to get would be a router with router bits and a Kreg Jig.
I tested the saw and sander to make sure they worked, and at the store I purchased a 2 year replacement warrantee for the saw. I now need to get the wood to make either a work table or at least a new computer table for my husband. I already have the screw drivers, both cordless and corded, I am hoping that once I get decent at work working I can start selling what I make so we can have a little money on the side, also start saving up money so we can start doing fun stuff like go to Disneyland as a family.